Christians memorial garden

We arent finished yet but I wanted to share what we have done with everyone.

For my sweet Christian

There is not a moment of the day that im thinking of you Christian. I miss you more and more everyday. I miss seeing that beautiful face and hearing those I love you momma's. I still dont undersand why god had to take you away from us and I might never get that. I know that you are no longer in pain and free of cancer but why did you have to get cancer in the first place. I hope you know how much I love you and always will.
Your pre-k graduation is approaching and it makes me very sad knowing that you will not being joining your friends on that day and moving up to kindergarden. I hope that you will be with me that day as I watch all your little friends and see everyone that you loved and loved you. I know that you loved school and this is why im going, I feel like this is what you want me to.
We are starting to work on your garden at church I hope you like what we do to honor you my sweet boy.
Mommy loves you and misses you my sweet angel Christian.

carters room

update on us

Things around here have been busy we were working on Carters room, the backyard and the garden for Christian in the back. Plus trying to get things worked out for his special garden at the church which we will be working on that very soon.

It will be 7 weeks since Christian passed on this sunday. And im not looking forward to mothers day this year. I know we still have Carter but its just to soon for me. I have started working on the house and everytime I would pick something up something of Christians would be underneath it, I am having a really hard time now and missing him more then ever. The more time goes by the harder this is getting. So again if I dont return emails or phone calls im just not in the mood to talk. I will add some pics soon of Carters room and the garden so far.